friday... i think

I'm depressed about something. i don't know what though. the only reason that i know that something is wrong is that there is a feeling in my stomach. you know, that feeling that you feel along your spine, and at the back of your throat and in your chest. I can't get rid of it. well i guess  i could get rid of it, by snuggling up with a guy, someone who will always be there for me and who will love me unconditionally. and who probably doesn't exist and if he does exist, than I'm probably the last girl in the world who he would go out with. and he also would have to respect my super secret asperation, to be a cop. wow, did i just say that? i didn't really mean to. i mean i did but, just don't tell anyone! most people that i've met don't except me as it is. And the one person who will actually talk to me, got a boyfriend (who now wants to kill me because I "never leave her side". They have spent the past four days together!). i found out that one of my friends likes my favorite singer, maybe he is the perfect match for me. idk.  i'm confusing aren't i?